I Needed to hear you say..[SPOILERS]

[dragonrider90]

Dear dad.. i've been trying to be a viking like you guys .. i've been at it for a long time now, and just wish you would see the way i see things.. sadly its different from what you see before you. Not a viking, just some kid still confused about who he is. As right as that would seem, you dont let me be who i need to be.. I needed to hear you say that your proud of me.

Dear dad.. i wish i could tell you about the remarkable discovery i found today.. a night fury. i told everyone i hit it and i found it for proof. its bigger than i am, but that didnt stop me from releasing it. Yes you heard me. I released it, even after thinking about how proud you would be of me if i had killed it, and taken its heart to you. Im sorry dad i couldnt do that. He was scared.. just as i was.. and if i took his heart, i'd be just as heartless. If i could have told you then, about the night fury and me finding it.. i guess... i needed to hear you say that you loved me.

dear dad... today Astrid and i found the dragons nest. It was big, and amazing, yet creepy and disturbing all at once. What you would have given to see such a place like that. but no, i cant tell you about this either, on account of you doing something reckless. Im afraid The Green/red Death will kill you and all of your men if your attempt to fight was unstoppable.. I didnt know what to do. what i wouldnt give.. just for a moment to talk to you about this without you getting angry at me. I needed you to say that it was alright to be afriad.


Dear dad... im keeping all this bottled up inside and its driving me mad. I was so angry and hopeless today when i saw your ships leave with Toothless on it, guiding you towards the dragons nest. I tried my hardest...you wouldnt listen to me. I tried to tell you everything my heart wanted to tell you because it was bottled up so much so that it hurt me. It took courage to stand up to you, since your bigger than i am.. but when i heard you say "your not my son" .. i froze. So as i stand here and watch the ships leave.. my heart calls out to you to stop, but my prayers are silenced thinking its the last time i'll ever see you again.. i needed to hear you say that you would be with me even if the seas, or the Green/Red dragon took you..

Dear Hiccup...I read the entire thing. Im sorry i've been such a horrible father to you, and not listening. What i would have given to just have gone back into the past to fix things, and make them right again. But you know what, thats something special, hmm?..I AM proud of you...a father couldnt be more proud than i am of you. Son ... I love you with everything i've got in me. I may not show it all the time, you may not HEAR it all the time.. but sometimes i got angry because you werent like me, Unlike Astrid or your friends.. they never tried to change you. So im done trying to make you something your not.. Live to be who you are and what you are today. Its always alright to be scared, or frightened in life. Every day i face something frightening. I know i dont tell you this because i always thought it was a sign of weakness... but apparently everyone needs to realize their fears. And one last thing, Hiccup... No matter where the seas may take me, always know that if the sea herself swallows me whole, and i never can return to you, you always have a bit of me in your heart. I am privileged to be in the heart of a hero, nonetheless a father of one. Please forgive me. Its all a father can ask for, is forgiveness when years of un settlement has seperated us farther apart...Son, im so sorry.

Dear..Dad.. i .. dont know what to say right now.. Im glad you accepted me finally as your son, being what i am. I couldnt have done it without you... because... i know.. that when i look into your eyes, it was there the entire time.. i just had to make you see somehow.. I dont know if you'll ever read this journal again.. but just in case, you see this blurb.. all i ask is that you help me now.. i cant feel my leg...

Dear Hiccup.. i read this again. i'll be here for you till the end of my time here, my son. Im proud of you. I guess.. it was me who needed to hear you say this.. so i could try to fix all the pain i've put you through... as long as you'll accept me as a father again..

Dear Dad.. i've never stopped believing you were my father..

Dear Hiccup: .. i love you so much.

Dear Dad.. i love you too.